What's next?

After visiting the surgeon about my thyroid cancer, it was decided to schedule surgery in the early Spring. I will have time to complete the chemo that ends early March, spend a month in Florida and a trip to California to see Andy and family, play Pebble Beach.......then surgery.

For now, it is time to prepare for the Christmas Holidays. Our children will be home in a couple of weeks so it is time to be rested, a refrigerator full of vegetables and tasty food, with snow on the country club hills for sledding. We wish everyone safe travels and Holiday cheer! Martha

Christmas Letter

I have decided to post my part of The Poppink Melcher Christmas letter via blogspot.com.
This method saves paper and extra stamps.

We will have our children and grand children all home a few days after Christmas. We are all looking forward to our time together. Andy and family live in California. Cal is 4 and Nora 2years old. They love to come to Michigan for sledding, and playing with cousins. Katie and family live in Florida where Katie and Sam are serving our country in the Army. Severyn is .12 and Loreli is 9. They love to go Geocashing and playing in the snow with cousins. Kevin and family live in Saline, Michigan. Tess is 8 and Mia 6. Along with their mom, Holly, they are taking piano lessons. Both girls have a passion for drawing and hunting for frogs and snakes.
Scott also lives in Saline. We have the treat of seeing him quite often if he is not at work or on the golf course.

My journey in 2011 has been chronicled in this blog, so I won't repeat it again here. Joe has been such a marvelous support all year. He has enjoyed golf with his friends at the country club, volunteered at the hospital, works out at the fitness center. He just had his physical and as he says, "The doctor says I am a real specimen." I can vouch for that.

I have enjoyed playing my cello this year. The Pops concert was Dec. 4th. I just love playing and enjoy my friends in the orchestra. Seven years ago I worked with a committee of music lovers to promote a string program in Tecumseh schools. This past concert had students playing with the Pops Orchestra. The stage was full. I resigned as President of Community Arts of Tecumseh and am happy that it continues to grow. As soon as I was finished with radiation I signed up for a portrait class. We have a student show this week. Music and art fill my soul.
I can get into a peaceful place when playing or drawing.

The Poppink Melcher Family wishes you a Happy, Healthful, prosperous New Year!
Martha and Joe

New development

Last year I had an ultrasound to check for a blood clot. The technician noticed a spot on my thyroid. My oncologist said to follow up with a thyroid needle biopsy when I had completed the breast cancer treatments. I had the biopsy Nov 21st. I have thyroid cancer. I will see a surgeon next week. The curious thing is that I had thyroid cancer on the left lobe 28 years ago now it is on the other lobe. Thyroid cancer is slow growing and very treatable....as evidence from my experience before. This probably means another surgery. I will know more after next Thursday when I see the surgeon.

I am looking so forward to having the health issues behind me..... We all count our blessings and hope for good health. I remember asking my mom what she wanted for Christmas. Her answer would be, " I just want continued good health". Was she ever right, you can have all the material gifts but having good health is the best gift ever. Good health is my Christmas wish for everyone in 2012!

Give thanks with a grateful heart

Give Thanks with a Grateful Heart are words from a hymn we sing during the Thanksgiving season. This year the words have a special meaning for us. A year ago the future was uncertain for me. The breast cancer diagnosis was looming. Now a year later, with chemo,surgery and radiation behind me, I am on the mend. I am so grateful for the support from family and friends, for the doctors, nurses and staff that are compassionate and caring. The campaigns for raising cancer awareness and dollars for research and development are supported by so many. there are so many people afflicted with cancer. Just since my diagnosis there have been 4 friends that have been diagnosed. There must be an answer to the question, why?

I am grateful for all the blessings that Joe and I have received this year. We are different people today..... A renewed spirit for living each day and and saying Thanks be to God, family and friends, we are truly blessed. Martha

Thought for the day

I received this in an email from Vera Clark and want to share it.

Attitude is everything. Be kinder than necessary for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle. Live simply, Love generously, Care deeply, Speak kindly, and Pray continually. Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass.... It is about learning to dance in the rain!!!

Celebration

It has been 11 days since my last radiation treatment. My radiation burn is healing and getting better each day. I have been going to a massage therapist every couple of weeks. This week she game me some aloe stalks from a plant she had. I have put the aloe directly on my burn and I have had more relief and healing since using it. This week I didn't have any doctors appointment and it was so good to stay close to home, relax, and have lunch with friends. There has been a lot of celebration going on.

I have signed up for a portrait class at the Art Center. The first one was this past Monday. I am a bit rusty but it feels good to be back drawing. I also made a doll out of twigs and athletic tape, painted her..... she represents my freedom from breast cancer. I really get lost (alpha state) when doing art or music. Orchestra started in October so I am back playing my cello.... every day brings a return to normal living.

Last night I spent a couple of hours listening to lectures on TED.com
I posted one that I really enjoyed on my Facebook page. It a professor talking about creativity. He is humorous with a wonderful message. Check TED.com out..... great speakers.

We are coming up to Thanksgiving week soon. I have so much to be Thankful for. Going thru the frightening news of cancer is such a shock. It was a year ago Nov. 15th that I went to Comprehensive Breast Center and was walked to the door, the doctor said good luck, as her secretary made an appointment for surgery for me. After surgery, Andy flew home, and Kevin, Andy and Joe and I heard the doctor say, "You have a fast growing form of cancer." Throughout this year I have had the blessing of support from family and friends. Your caring concern has gotten me thru this treatment time. I still have tests, and treatment every three weeks until March. The worst of it is behind me. Thank you, thank you, Love, Martha

Hip, hip, Hurray!

I received a diploma of completion yesterday! Radiation is behind me.
What a great feeling. I met with the oncologist yesterday. She has some diagnostic tests scheduled then I will see her every 3 months. I will continue every three weeks with Herceptin infusion thru Feb.

We are planning to go to Florida in February. We missed last year and enjoy catching up with friends there. Our family will all be home during the Christmas holidays. Lots to be thankful for and to celebrate.

Thank you or all the love and support. Martha

Nearing the completion

I am nearing the completion of radiation.... Oct. 31st.
My days have been full with going to Ann Arbor for treatment. I am getting some reddness and itch with the radiation. This is my last week plus the following Monday, so I expect my skin will blister and continue getting red. I have met several other patients while waiting for my appointment. We all share our stories and the effects of the treatment and our experiences.

Orchestra rehearsals started two weeks ago. I enjoy playing my cello in the Tecumseh Pops Orchestra and have the energy to get to rehearsals. This will be my 31st year. My how time flies!

Joe and I have plans to go to Florida this winter. I bought 2 pair of capri pants this week so I will have some summer clothes to wear when we head south. I have lost 25 pounds and none of my clothes fit. I have bought new slacks for fall and winter. Some tops are too big but most are O.K.
finally, my appetite has returned but I haven't gained any weight and really don't want to gain much back. Which closet will I get dressed from.... the old size or the new size?

This journey has been a big learning experience for me. Twenty-five years ago Cal was being treated for Melanoma. He was 42 years old when he was first diagnosed. He was a marvelous teacher for all of us as he went thru treatment; clinical trials in New York, Washington state, Wisconsin and Michigan. In 1986 there was no treatment plan for his cancer. We tried to find the cure by being in clinical trials. Today, there is a better chance if someone gets the Melanoma diagnosis. With all cancers the early detection is very important for living longer. The same is true with breast cancer. So may patients I have met found their tumor thru self examination. That is what happened with me. I found the lump. I have had annual mammograms for many years. My tumor developed in a couple of months, according to the surgeon that did the disection. So I hope that when you read this blog you will do a self exam, do it at least once a month if not more often. Men too, you are not exempt from breast cancer.

Thank you for following this blog. I will continue to write as I continue toward good health and a full life. Your support has meant the world to me and my family. I have been truly blessed and am so grateful to have family and friends with me throughout this past year. I couldn't have made it without you.
Love,Martha

Half way

Tomorrows treatment is #14....... Half way. I am getting the look of sun/color on my skin. I need to put sunscreen on when going outside. The best part is that we have had beautiful Indian Summer weather the past couple of weeks. I played 9 holes os golf on Sunday. I haven't played too much this summer but it sure was beautiful and was lots of fun. Having Saturday and Sunday off makes a big difference in my energy level.

My grand daughter, Tess will celebrate her 8 th birthday on Halloween so there is a lot of excitement at her house planning the party. By then I will have radiation treatments complete and will have a lot to celebrate too.
Martha

Reunion reflections

This past weekend was my 50th high school reunion. On Friday night we met at Johnney T's, and Saturday evening at Hillsdale College Dow Center. It was great catching up with classmates. I do stay in contact with quite a few of my close friends thru email and facebook. I was fortunate to go from Kindergarden thru 12th grade in Hillsdale, Michigan. My father had a business so we stayed in the same house throughout my growing years. It seems that every house on our street had children so it was an active fun time with young families and lots of friends to play with. After supper I would hop on my bicycle and visit friends, just drop in. Friends parents were all "homespun" so I would be welcome to "drop in". Somewhat of a Pleasantville atmosphere.

My high school friend, Leslie, who lives in Florida and was back for the reunion, also a breast cancer survivor of 8 years, road with me to treatment on Wednesday. I had an opportunity to learn about her journey and she listened to mine. There is so much sharing of stories and experiences thru this journey. Cindy Opelt drove me on Thursday and Joe on Friday.
I drove myself on Tuesday and had to stop at Kevin's house because I just couldn't go any further. I am catching on to pacing myself and not doing so much. The radiation does make me unexpectedly tired. I will think I have the "steam" to do something then findout I am on low.

I have 21 more radiation treatments to go. The countdown is on. One day this past week the machine was down so after making the trip to Ann Arbor we headed home. The rainy weather is do gloomy. I am ready for sunshine and 70 degree temperatures expected this week.

Martha

Treatment # 5

Today I had my 5th radiation treatment. Each day I check in, change into a hospital gown then go to a waiting room. There are 3 treatment areas. I have treatment on the same machine each day. There are usually 4 to 6 patients waiting in the waiting room. After 5 days of conversation we have each told our cancer story, with the exception of one man who just listens. The stories are varied and involved with repeat diagnosis. Some return in another area, some inoperable....radiation is hoped to make the positive turnaround.

Last week Andy,Laura,Cal and Nora sent a "Mimi's Magic Calendar"
it has 28 boxes with sweet stickers that keep the box closed until it is time to open the appropriate day. Inside is a beautiful picture of a family member. I am counting down the 28 days with a wonderful surprise picture each day. I love looking at beautiful children and grandchildren pictures......brightens my day.

High school reunion is coming up this weekend. I am looking forward to seeing my classmates. I know there will be many to catch up with and others we will miss that will not be there.

First radiation treatment

Before radiation today I met with friends from my hometown, Hillsdale, Michigan.
Karen and Lynn Morningstar, and Kay Walper. We had a good time talking about the "good old days"........ Oh, to be young again with the comfort and protection of loving parents and friends. In a couple of weeks I will return to Hillsdale for my 50th high school class reunion. We will enjoy reliving our schools days and catching up on our children and grand children.

After our 2 1/2 hour lunch, Kay and I headed to St.Joes Hospital for my first radiation treatment. I was there for 45 minutes but only about 15 minutes getting into position and receiving radiation.... I only sensed the machine revolving around me, getting into 4 different positions..... It was painless. The radiation effects build up as time goes by, I will expect to feel some "sunburning" reactions as time goes by. I repeat this same routine 27 more times. Martha

Beginning Radiation

I begin Radiation this coming Tuesday, Sept. 20th. I met with the radiologist oncologist this week. They made a form and simulation that I will be in during the treatment. I will go 5 days a week for 5.5 weeks. So I should be all done the end of October. I am going to St. Joe's Hospital in Ann Arbor. The treatment will take 15 to 20 minutes. I am getting closer to the finish line.

Catching up

Michigan has had such a change in weather the past week. Last Sat. The temp was in the 90's today 9/8 it was in the 60's...... Feels like fall is really here. I am taking several walks a day to get stronger. I have not had much of an appetite and have lost about 25 pounds since beginning treatment. My slacks just drape and fall off, I think it means a shopping trip.

I see the radiologist on Monday, they will measure and mark my body and work on a simulation. I should start 7.5 weeks of radiation 5 days a week the last week of September.
My high school class reunion is Oct 1st so I am hoping to make it to see a lot of friends that are coming.

I hope that the readers of this blog have had a good summer and are ready for fall football, apple picking and the beautiful fall colors. Martha

Home a week

I have been home a week today..... slowly getting more strength. I saw the surgeon today. He extended the days on the antibiotic because he is going to be out of town over Labor Day weekend and wants to make sure he is in town when I go off the antibiotic. He mentioned that the infection could just be surpressed so if it returns he will need to surgically remove the mesh that could be harboring infection. I sure hope that that is not the case and the infection is gone.

I will meet my new oncologist on Monday. Dr. Krauss, went to U of M as head of Oncology so I have a new doctor in their practice. I haven't see her since my surgery so I am eager to see what she has to say since my pathology report was good after surgery. I am still looking at radiation the end of September if all goes well with the infection. I sure hope it is cleared up.

More next week. Martha

Coming Home today

August 18th
The doctors are releasing me today....Hallelujah !
I will be on oral medication and check in with the doctor if the situation changes.
I am so excited to get home.
Thanks for all your prayers, visits, phone calls,etc. Family, friends and lots of prayers will get me thru.

Still in hospital

It appears that I will be in the hospital a few more days. One of the cultures showed staph so my meds are being changed. Up until now, the rash has remained the same, red and angry. Fortunately, I feel O.K., no fever, no appetite, trying to find ways to occupy myself. Joe is here every day and many friends too. Kay Walper has kept me calm as well of all of you that have emailed or called.

Complications

I had my last drain removed last Wed. On Thursday I developed a bright red rash. Today I am back in the hospital with an IV antibiotic.... Staf infection and cellulitis. I will be here about 3 days. The summer is passing me by, next summer will be different.

Feeling stronger

I visited the doctor this week...6 drains were removed, one remains. That one should be removed on Wednesday. I receive a Herceptin infusion on Tuesday then back to Ann Arbor on Wednesday for the drain removal. Every day is a better day. I am healing by sleeping a lot of the time.Every day this week there have been visitors which I enjoy seeing family and friends, it provides for stimulation and conversations about current events in others lives.
I am probably watching too much television, The debt crisis and stock market instability make for nervous thoughts. I have a good book that I hope to get back to tomorrow. Thanks to everyone for the encouraging thoughts and prayers...I hope to be fully recovered soon and ready to be out and about soon. Love, Martha

Recovery continues

Now into nine days after surgery. I am extending the time between taking medicine and reducing the pain medication. We have had beautiful flowers delivered, delicious meals, great visits from friends,emails,and calls. I will see the doctor on Tuesday and hope that the drains will be removed. Then I will be able to move around. More later.

I'm home

July 26 and I am home. Dr. Izenberg, the plastic surgeon stopped in early this morning. Gave me good news that the pathology report showed no more cancer and I could go home. Hallelujah!
My recovery will continue due to drains, soreness and just rest.
Thanks to everyone for your good wishes,prays, food, cards, visits,and friendship while I continue the treatment. Enjoy the summer weather. Martha

July 23d

Day after surgery ... It was an 8 hour surgery. Needed a blood transfusion. I am very sore and having difficulty getting a deep breath. Three lymph node were removed. I am getting excellent care. Holly spent last night with me, Joe will stay tonight... I can't reach for things and need help. I took two walks today and am sitting in a chair. I can't sleep because of the tightness in my breath. Hope I can sleep tonight. Martha

This is the day

I am packing up to go to the hospital. Surgery is scheduled for one o'clock today. This is just another step in heading toward good health. The cancer will be removed. Thanks for all the prayers and healing thoughts. I'll make another post when I get back home.... 3 to 5 days. Love, Martha

July.15

Today is my grand daughter, Nora"JoJo" birthday. She says she is two years alive.
It is also a surgery day for me. My spiritual reading was perfect... from the book Jesus Calling, saying do not worry but give you burdens and concerns over to God... So that is just what I did. Surgery took about an hour and half. I have an incision about 8 inches long. I have pain meds that are helping. The big surgery is next Friday. I will be hospitalized for several days afterwards. Otherwise, I am staying quiet and healing today. Enjoying the beautiful day. Martha

Summer time

Today was a beautiful Michigan summer day, fresh warm air, sunshine, and blue skies. The Women's Golf Association at our golf club had a two day Rally for the Cure. The men and women made donations for the Hickman Cancer Center at Bixby Hospital in Adrian, Mich. We raised $1400. This money will be used for families of cancer patients that need financial assistance. We have had this event for many years but the last few years we have donated locally.
My college friend, Corinne, joined us today too. It was great being with her.

Martha

Catching up

I haven't written since the middle of June. Since my last chemo treatment energy, stamina, clearer head, and better health have come back. It is amazing how the chemo slows one down. I went to a retirement party for a fellow counselor soon after chemo ended and I was struggling to stay with a conversation, keep focused, etc. I am glad to return to my former self.... I am about 70% there.

Next, is preparing for surgery. I have 2 surgeries.... July 15, 22nd at St. Joe's Hospital in Ann Arbor. The procedure is the tram flap. I will have a double mastectomy followed by the tram flap which uses a segment of the lower abdominal skin, fat and muscle to reconstruct a new breast. It is about a 5 hour surgery and a 3 to 5 day hospital stay. I am a bit anxious as I go into this long surgery but I have talked with several friends that have had the same doctors and surgery, they are pleased with the results, there is a recovery period so you know where you can find me... at home.

We enjoyed a wonderful July 4th weekend with my two sons and their families. It was extremely hot so we enjoyed swimming and playing some indoor games with the little ones who range in ages from 7,5,4,and 2years of age. It sure is fun watching the cousins interact. We enjoyed the traditional cook out too. I hope you had a great holiday as we all celebrated the freedom and independence our country provides.

Martha

Good News!

I met with my oncologist this week...... good news!
The cancer responded to the chemotherapy. Hurray!
The 16 treatments did their work. Next is surgery, July 22nd.
Thanks for all the prayers that positive thoughts sent for healing.

Thank you GOD!! Martha

Tuesday, yes to golf, no to Chemo!

Yesterday my friend Jane called me to join her for golf. Tuesday was a beautiful day so I decided to play, I didn't have chemo, all done with that.

My surgery is scheduled July 22nd. I have a few weeks to gather strength and prepare for a double mastectomy and reconstruction. Our family from California will come for a visit over the fourth of July. We haven't see Laura and Nora since Christmas. Our little Nora, will be 2 in July and Mia will be five. I think we will have a family birthday celebration for them over the holiday. Can't wait to play with our grandchildren, they have such joyful laughter and playful spirit..... so much fun to be around.

Martha

Hurray, Last chemo

On Tuesday I had my last chemo...... Hurray!!
My cousin, Nancy Burke, kept me company. We had such a great visit.
We talked away the couple of hours catching up on our families and talking about past family experiences. Nancy was the city cousin, I was the country cousin. She grew up on Dearborn, Mi. and I in Hillsdale. I remember spending a few days at her house when I was young. It might have been one of the first times I was away from my parents. I was very homesick I remember. One of the memories from that visit was Nancy painting her fingernails, I was probably still digging in the dirt with my hands. Her nails were beautiful today, mine were filed but not beautiful like hers. Anyway, we had a fun time reminising and catching up. I think we both agreed that we need reconnect again.

Joe and I met with the plastic surgeon today, I have a tentitive date of July 22 for surgery. I will have a few days in the hospital after the surgery and a 6 to 8 week recovery.... on to the next phase.

The Art Center had a Student Show tonight. Many families came to see their work. It was a great event. Jean Lash pulled it all together. The center continues to grow with new staff and classes growing in numbers. One of the popular ones is making Fairy Doors. There are summer camps for kids, portrait classes for adults. Lots of choices and wonderful work coming from students.

Martha

Music is Medicine

Every day that I am resting, I listen to music. We have the dish so my channel 856. The music is relaxing. When I am in the car, I play classical or light classical or pop and other channels on the Sirrus radio. If I am feeling good, I play the piano ( not well), or the guitar, or cello. To me music is a spiritual experience.

When in 4 grade I was given the opportunity by the Hillsdale Public Schools and my parents to play a musical instrument...the cello. At the time ( in the 50's and 60's) we had a wonderful teacher, Mr. Bob Lint. He expected excellence in the orchestra with a 30+ string of State First Divisions. We rehearsed, sight read and went to festival prepared. It was a fantastic learning experience of working as a section and unit. Listening to to one another, so must of life is learned playing in an orchestra. I love the vibration the tone the sound that comes for the orchestra working together.

Tecumseh Public Schools, Adrian Public Schools have strong string and music programs. Recently the Tecumseh students enjoyed a master class that they will remember for a life time. The Tecumseh program was initiated by several local musicians, I was one of them. Now our beginning students are finishing their Junior year. Under the direction of Bob Philips and Amy Marr the program is so strong and growing. The Elizabeth Wilson Foundation director, Theresa Powers and her board have supported the Tecumseh program from the beginning with time, talent and treasure. With the financial support from the Wilson Foundation and TPS the program is flurrishing and growing.

If you have time and are interested in the benefits of Arts for our youth please take time to go the the TED web sight. Robert Gupta; Music is Medicine, Music is Sanity will help you understand why music is so important to the healing of our mind, body and spirit. It is for me, Martha

One to go !!!!

Next week will be my LAST Taxol and Herceptin treatment.... 16 treatment total.
I will continue with Herceptin for 6 treatments every three weeks. This is because my tumor was estrogen positive.
I struggled this past week, missed out on several social events that I just couldn't manage to get to. The nurse said that the steroid that I get begins to wear down so consequently I am under the influence of the chemo at that point in the week.

Joe and I did enjoy a cook out at Kevin and Holly's house with their friends, they are all so much fun to be with. We went to the lake on Monday with Kevin and family. Tess am Mia had fun swimming in front of the Lash and Schick cottage. I dangled my feet in the cool refreshing water. I love the being at the lake. I grew up on Baw Beese Lake in Hillsdale and have so many fond memories of great times with friends, giving swimming lessons at the beach. The Memorial Holiday is a time to remember our service personnel that are keeping our country free. We are very proud of Katie and Sam in our family that are serving our country in the Army.

My good friend, Joanne Kuhlman, took me to treatment today. The time flew because we had a nice visit, she made a delicious lunch, and even a People Magazine to catch up on. It was nice spending the day with her. Jean Lash, Kay Walper and Pam Feldkamp have also taken me. I appreciate the time they have taken out of their busy days. Thanks good friends who have helped out in so many ways. I just wish I felt good enough afterwards to do a little shopping.

Our book club is reading "No Angel" by Penny Vincenzi. I am really enjoying it.
Joe and I are enjoying a Shepards Pie that Jocelyn Menyhart made. She will be leaving for England soon, I'll miss her, she has been such a terrific friend.

More later, Martha

Under the care of my friend Linda

Joe went to Alabama this past week for daughter Katie's graduation from Apache Helicopter flight school. She received special recognition for Leadership and Mentoring. She will now be in the Army National Guard waiting for a future assignment.

My long time friend/roomate from those single girl years, came to keep me company, rested, entertained and well fed. Linda and I met in the 60's and have continued our friendship thru our weddings, birth of children, raising grown adult children and the ups and downs of life. She had two wonderful sons as did I. Linda and Dave are God parents to our youngest son Andy and we are Godparents to her eldest son, Jamie. Cheri and Cherly joined us for lunch with lots of reminising of college friends and experiences from our youthful years. Thank you Linda.

I will have my 3d treatment this Tuesday. I'll be very happy to have this chemo behind me. I will talk with the radiologist this week, plastic surgeon the week after. Gathering more information so we can make an informed decision for the next phase of treatment.

Community Arts of Tecumseh had a successful Bike Ride fundraiser today. The weather cooperated. The committee did a fantastic job of organizing the event. We had 96 riders, art projects, food, and art sale. The weather was perfect after a week long rain.

Memorial weekend is coming up. If you are traveling.... find cheap gas?? and drive safely. Love, Martha

Update

I have not been writing much this past week..... Mother's Day, Birthday, doctors appointments.
I have 4 more taxol, herceptin treatments. I will continue on herceptin for 6 treatments every three weeks after that. We met with the surgeon last week, and have an appointment with a plastic surgeon in June. I'll have an MRI and CT scan before surgery to see how my body reacted to the chemo.

My husband is headed to Alabama for Katie's graduation from flight school. She now knows how to fly an Apache Attack Heliocopter..... what a girl. She is graduating with honors. What an accomplishment. We are very proud of her.

Thank you to everyone that sent birthday wishes. I got lots of cards, Facebook messages, birthday dinners with friends, and calls. It is good to keep having birthdays. Love to all, Martha

Beautiful Weather Really Does Lift the Spirts!!

Did you ever notice how your spirits lift when you slip on shorts, peel off socks, kick off those high top shoes to put on sandals and head outdoors on a beautiful day. Michigan is a fantacy land with flowering Bradford Pear trees lining the streets and beautiful green lawns ( that need mowing several times a week now) Tulip trees, Cherry Tress, and spring flowers. It is beautiful!! Spring has always been my favorite season because it brings on new birth. As we drive from Tecumseh to Ann Arbor and other Michigan towns we see mothers animals tending to their new born babies, swans are back in the ponds with their off spring, not sure what a baby swan is called at the moment?? cygnet?? (its late (1:40) brain is slow tonight) I know my first grade grand daughter would know but she is fast asleep.

This winter weather has made going thru chemotherapy since January a long and ardious process. I have approached the 16 treatment like a bear.... hibrinating and sleeping through the winter. But, Spring is here and I have 4 treatments left. Hip,Hip, Horray!!

This week I will have gone to Ann Arbor 3 days for medical consultations,or treatment. Joe was able to play golf today because I drove myself to treatment. I had an offer for a ride but decided I should try ( the doctor reduced some of the pretreatment drugs so I would be more alert and not so groggy) I even played school with grand daughters during a short stop in Saline at their house.

It is now Wednesday morning, the steroid is keeping me awake which happens some times.
I do get caught up on some work that seems to be too difficult to tackle later in the week due to Neupogen shot that knocks be out for a few days.

On Monday we met with my oncologist, we worked on the the future plans.
I will finish chemo June 7th then have about 4 weeks to prepare for surgery, I meet with a surgeon tomorrow so I will know more about what he suggests. So I am anticipating surgery the middle of July. If all goes by plan I will start radiation, for 7 weeks-- 5 days a week, the end of August. I will continue chemo, 6 treatment every 3 weeks,then continue on meds for 5 years. I am a part of a clinical study. The recipe seems to be decided based on my type of ductal inflamatory carcinom. I will have an MRI, and CT scan in June to determine if my body responded to the chemo.... the doctor has said several times that he feels it is responding favorably. I am Her2 positive which response well to the treatment.

I'll have more to report after the meeting with the surgeon tomorrow. I should sign off and get some rest. Love, Martha

Mother's Day+ Remembering My mother

Tomorrow is Mother's Day. A special day for families to be together to celebrate Mother. My mother has been deceased since 1986. She died at age 80. She was 39 when I was born. I never had sibligs but always gathered friends at our home. My parents were fun to be around. My dad was quite a tease, always with a smile on his face, or a joke to get his point across. So friends always felt welcome. My mother always offered friends something to eat or drink. She would have a snack ready when I got home from school. She was always there for me. Listening and sensing whether I had a good or bad day that needed to be talked about.

I realize that I had very "special parents", loving, strict, interested in my activities, encouraging, and trusting. When Cal and I became parents we both brought the childhood experieces we had growing up. The Poppink family had similar values as the Morlock family. So the blending of our parenting skills seemed to fit together quite well. Our sons are now husbands and fathers. I love watching them interact and play with their young children. Tess, Mia, Cal and Nora are blessed children with loving parents and grandparents. We all love them so much. We will continue the lessons we have learned from our own parents. Guiding our grandchildren with lessons learned from home.

Mother's Day is a day to celebrate family!! Happy Mother's Day!!
Martha

May 5, 2011

All went well with treatment this week.... #6 with 5 more to go.
I will be very happy when chemo is behind me. Again, I will give myself Neupogen shots for 3 days. I don't feel so energetic after the shots, but they boost the white cells so very necessary.

This past Sunday was May 1st or May Day. My mother started the tradition with me of making paper baskets or cones then filling them with popcorn, wrapped candy, and fresh flowers. We then went to friends homes, placed the basket at the door, rang the door bell, and ran, we might get a kiss if they caught us. Sometimes you wanted to get caught.....

My neighbor, Nancy Ankin and I continued the tradition with our children.
Eric, now a husband and father has remembered the fun we had when they were young and continues to bring a bouquet of flowers to our house on May Day. He surprized me again this year!!! I'll get you next year, Eric!!

Concert today

Our Tecumseh Pops Orchestra and Chorus had our Spring Concert this afternoon. We celebrateed our 30th Anniversary. I have played with the orchestra for 30 years. I play the cello, I started in 4th grade..... how many years is that anyway??? The concert theme was "Let's Dance". Our friends Ed and Michelle Stuck danced The Lover's Waltz, they celebrate their 30th Wedding Anniversary tomorrow so it was a special dance show for them. We had cloggers, tango, folk dance, and tap dance to "Singing in the Rain" with the choir. A fun concert. I had enough stamina to do it too.

This Tuesday I have my 6th treatment. I have an appointment with the surgeon the week after so I will know more about what my choices will be. Not so sure of reconstructive surgery, Iwill weigh the pluses and minuses. It means another surgery which I could even wait until I have more time to think about it.

Because of the surgery I will not be able to travel east to niece Allison's wedding in Vermont in July. Our grand daughters have been asked to be flower girls, I hope they take good pictures/videos.

More later this week. Martha

Chemo treatment # 7 today

I had my 7th treatment today. My friend, Jean Lash went with me. Joe had a day off so he did errands today. It wasn't nice enough to play golf which he does on Tuesdays and Thursdays with the "guys" at the country club. Jean and I had a nice time catching up, having great conversation about being grandmothers, teacher methods, art center advocates, etc. Thank you Jean for being a terrific friend. I sure do enjoy being with you.
Todays treatment went right on time. I gave the nurse a verbal "blue ribbon" for getting me thru in about 2 and a half hours. In the past it has taken longer for the pharmacy to get the drugs to the treatment center, or they are checking with the doctor to see if he wants to hold treatment, etc. I gave myself 3 shots to get ready for today, and probably will continue for the remainder of the chemo treatments.
My son, Andy and grandson Cal, were here for Easter weekend. Cal had fun playing with his cousins. Andy's god parents, Dave and Linda Newton, and Scott Melcher and girlfriend were all here for Easter dinner. Holly was such a great help in the kitchen and putting the house back together...thank you Holly. I do love to hear the laughter of children playing. They laugh from the center of their being, unaffected with pure joy.... sure is a blessing to be a part of their growing up.
Andy brought an early birthday/mother's day gift... an Ipad.
I am having a great time using it for email, ebooks, youtube,games, etc.
I ordered a book,"Emperor of all Malades" the history of cancer. It is very interesting just how the treatments were developed, who and how the American Cancer Society began, etc. Then listened to Dvorak-New World Symphony and love 2nd movement Adagio. Thank you Andy, Laura, Cal and Nora.
Our Tecumseh Pops Orchestra and Chorus has our Spring concert this Sunday..."Let's Dance". My friends Ed and Michelle Stuck are dancing "Lovers Waltz" on their 30 wedding anniversary. If you live in the area think about coming- 4p.m. at the Tecumseh Center for the Arts.
More later of Martha's Musings

Staying on Track

I was in good shape for chemotherapy today.... white blood cells up, no shingles so I now have 7 more chemo treatments to go, final one is scheduled for June 7th. I saw the doctor who said it is time to talk to the surgeon and radiologist. Those appointments have been made for middle of May and beginning of June.

I am very excited for Easter as son Andy and grandson Cal will be here. Cal will have fun playing with his cousins Tess and Mia.
I haven't seen them since Christmas. We Skype weekly but there is nothing like being together. Laura and Nora will come home this summer. We will miss them this weekend. Katie, Sam and family will be in Alabama for Easter but Scott and girlfriend Letha will be with us for Easter dinner.

The weather this spring has been extreme, snow on Monday, and a severe thunderstorm coming thru now as I enter this blog. Everyone is so ready
for Sunshine and warmer temperatures. I'm signing off and heading for the basement big boomers going on. My family lost our home in a tornado in 1965 so I don't hesitate to go to a safe place. Martha

Back on track

I received my treatment today....... back on track.
My white cell count was down again but at a level that they could still
give me the chemo. I will give myself shots again this week so that my white cell count will be stronger. I am already half way thru the chemo with 8 more treatments to go. I should be done with chemo the first of June.

We have enjoyed all the phone calls, cards, food, prayers,flowers, visits and thoughtfulness from family, friends, neighbors, church family, art center community. Thank you everyone!

We had a great time Skyping our family in California on Monday. Cal and Nora are just so much fun to sing, and talk with,and just see how they are growing. Andy celebrated his 38th birthday on April 10. Can't believe he is 38 and Kevin is 40. Kevin's youngest was practicing her cartwheels today, one after another.... so cute. Katie will graduate from flight school on May 19th and then her family will all be living in the Destin, Fl area. Scott is in the area so we see him occasionally.

Joe is celebrating a special birthday on April 18th. What to get him?
He wants a Mustang GT, Golf GPS, Trip, most of all, good health for all of us.
Martha

No Chemo - shingles

No Chemo today, week 2. The Neupogen shots last week put my white cell count way up so I was ready for chemo today. When I showed the nurse the red rash on my chest, and some other symptoms..... she had me see the doctor. They think I have shingles..... chicken pox virus that is dorment when the immune system is compromised. I had chicken pox when I was young, shingles about 10 years ago, and the shingles shot last year.
So another week without chemo and a prescription to treat the shingles.

As a healthy active person that has taken good care of my body, I am very disappointed that my body is complicating the treatment. I am a bit surprised that I am experiencing these setbacks. The chemo is very strong stuff that does things like this so the doctor was very careful not to put me in a further compromised situation by getting the treatment today.
Lets hope that I can continue next week.

Martha

No Chemo this week

My white blood cells were low this week so I didn't receive chemo. Instead the nurse instructed me on how to give myself shots of Neupogen ( a platelet booster). My immune defense system is low so I will stay away from crowds and people that may be sick. There is a lot of flu, colds, bronchitis, etc going around now so I will be staying close to home until I have a better defense system.

Things to do: read a good book, cook, practice my cello, play guitar, piano.... talk on the phone(give me a call), email, Facebook, work on grants for Art Center, take a nap......... I think I will keep busy.

Martha

Marking off the treatments

Today was treatment 10 so I am getting in the single numbers......  My white blood count was significantly lower this week. The nurse was ready to tell me that they would postpone todays treatment but the doctor said he didn't want me to miss a treatment.  I don't have any fever or infection so we are puzzled.....
I have my blood work done locally at Herrick Medical Center the day before my treatment ( saves me a trip to Ann Arbor) HMC then faxes the results to St. Joe's.  Some of the results were not on this report today so
just maybe there was a mix up. The white cell count was included in the report.

I am missing my lino cut class at Community Arts of Tecumseh tonight. Gregg Perez, the son of my good friend Rosamaria Perez, is the instructor. The art of lino cut, or wood cut, is very interesting.The process is carving out the design then printing with a special ink. I took a class from Gregg last spring and enjoyed it so much and made a couple of cuts that I use for note cards. Gregg's work is beautiful.

Here in Tecumseh we are preparing for either ice/snowy mix over the next 24 hours...... Spring is here?
Martha

Sping will be here soon

Spring arrives this weekend...... the snow is gone and temperatures are warm. Runners, bikers, and walkers are getting out for some exercise. That means that I am getting out for walks too. We are dog sitting for our grand dog, Jack. An adorable one year old Havernez. He has such a sweet personality, very loving and a cuddler.  We are enjoying his company while his family is in California visiting cousins, aunt and uncle.

I am getting chemo weekly now for 12 weeks, 2 down, 10 to go.  I am tolerating this treatment better than the first. I still get an allergic reaction..... itchy red face.  Benedryl seems to help so I have been able to do the things I want to do for the most part. 

March Madness is upon us so we always enjoy following the games. When Andy played for Stanford we had the pleasure of attending the games. That was such a fun time to be with the players and their families. Many of the Tecumseh fans came to NY, and RI for games too.  Great memories.

Martha

Wonderful connections

I have heard from many of you reading my blog that you enjoy staying connected.  Just today I have heard from Hillsdale High School classmates, Western Michigan Friends, and Friends living in Tecumseh and places beyond. I want you all to know just how wonderful it is to be in contact.  I guess it takes a friend experiencing a life adjustment for us to take the time to let each other know just how important our connection is to one another.  I appreciate the time you each take to respond, it gives me such joy to hear from you. 

My friend Jan Salsberry brought me a quilt that she made for my naps. It will keep me warm and snuggly.
It is black, red, and white, squares.  It is beautiful... Thank you Jan.

Allergic reaction day 2:  the doctor gave me a prescription for a steroid to control the itching and redness. I am not so itchy or red. feeling great today. We are dog sitting for our grand dog, Jack. He is the most adorable Havernez, a Cubin breed. He is a "lover boy" loves being in your lap..... so I am enjoying him so much.  Time to go outside..... Jack. 

Martha

Itchy Itchy

I am having an allergic reaction to the chemo I got yesterday. My face began to itch last night, maybe that is why I couldn't get to sleep (up til 4a.m.). So today my face is fire engine red and itchy as if I had landed face down in a poison ivy patch. I called the doctor and he prescribed a steroid. This might change the drugs I get this round. Otherwise today is a good day. Still waiting for spring to come. The birds are singing and robins are back so it must be coming soon. Martha

A Long Day

Today I was given two new drugs: Herceptin and Taxol. We arrived at the Cancer Center at 9:30a.m. and home at 4:30 p.m. We saw the doctor first, and reviewed the treatment plan again. Then determined that my treatments will still be in a critical phase in September when we have plans with friends to go on a Viking Cruise down the Danube, to vistit Prague, Vienna, Budapest and other beautiful cities. The time line for chemo, surgery and radiation then chemo again just continue to go thru the fall...... so we hope that we can just postpone the trip until 2012. Life is just full of adjustments, gotta do what you gotta do.

I am wide awake at 11:30 p.m. I got a steroid  injuction before treatment so lots of energy for a day and a half. Then ???
My mind is racing with ideas for the Art Center, Pops Orchestra and other organizations that I am involved with. The Art Center  and Tecumseh Parks and Recreation is planning a tour de Tecumseh, bike ride on May 22nd. There will be a family ride ( 12 mi) thru trails in Tecumseh with stops at park along the way, and a Recreational Bike Ride for more serious riders, who will have a 50K or 31 mi ride thru town.  This is a fundraising event for Community Arts of Tecumseh.  We are working with ReBike an organization that rebuilds bikes so no one will be excluded if they don't have a bike.
We are waiting for some approvals but are excited to promote art, fitness and health.

Tecumseh Pops Orchestra and Community Chorus began rehearsals 2 weeks ago. "Let's Dance" is the theme. We have local dancers that will dance while the orchestra or chorus accompanies them. Ed and Michelle Stuck will waltz to "Lover's Waltz" on their 30 th wedding anniversary the day of the concert..... May 1, 2011 at TCA, time is 4 oclock.  There will be about 5 dance music numbers.  Hope we will have friends attend this one.

Time to lay my head on the pillow.... good night and sweet dreams!! Martha

Veil has lifted

What a difference a day makes..... the foggy veil has lifted.  I feel so much better. I guess it is just a matter of being patient, and let the chemo kill those nasty cells.

So today, Joe and I went to Red Lobster..... lobster fest hooked me on TV. I had such an appetite today. I ordered surf and turf..... brought the turf and half the veggies home. I won't be hungry until tomorrow about noon. I have not been eating much in the carb part of the food pryimid so the red potatoes tasted so good .... salad and their cheesy biscuts all tasted out of this world. I am avoiding sugar and iron because I was told that cancer feeds on them. Greens, fruits, nuts, beans, all anti oxidents!!!

After lunch we went GT Mustang shopping. Joe turns  70 on April 18th so he has been wanting a Mustang for several years. Personally, I don't fit too well in a low rider.... my interest is only to keep him happy. We took at beautiful black with white stripe for a ride, the whrummm, whrummm, really impressed Joe.
We returned it to the dealership with the idea still in his head, never know what will be wrapped up on his birthday.

Then we took a ride out to the lake. We need a new tarp for our pontoon boat. Well, there were some very shiney new pontoon boats that we dreamed about wrapping up too. We have enjoyed cruising on Devils Lake for about 7 years. Our boat is in excellent shape so the idea of getting a new one isn't really practical, but we can dream, can't we?  All in all we took advantage of a beautiful sunny pre-spring day. The snow is melting and there are some brown/greenish spots that are opening up thru the white sparkly snowy spots.
I hope for another day tomorrow, just as clear as today...... no foggy veil!!! Love, Martha

Slow going

After my treatment last Monday, Feb 21st, I have been slow going. The nausea is a problem, primarily because I don't like taking the anti-nausea medicine because it makes me dizzy and sleepy...... not my style to sleep the day away. I called the doctor, waiting for a reply, about getting another medicine that takes care of the nausea without the side effects.

I watched the Oscar's last night, and enjoyed all the beautiful dresses and glamour. The students from New York P.A. 22 were on Oprah today singing the song with Katie Perry. It just re enforces the importance of music in the schools. These 5th graders has smiles on their faces a mile long. Their teacher sure has given them a gift of music, poise, travel, and an unbelievable gift for a life time. If only all children could have a teacher like this to inspire and ignite the fire in students like this music teacher.

Kay, Jennifer, Tootsie, Roxy!!

Joe now lives with 4 Martha personalities: Kay, Jennifer, Tootsie, and Roxy!
I have 4 wigs! One Kay Smith Loaned me, that's Kay.... and I purchased 3. On Friday, we met our good friends, the Jambors in Brighton, and wouldn't you know there was a fantastic wig shop there, Radiance Salon. They have a store in Brighton and Birmingham. It is a family business that has been making wigs for years. I bought 2 wigs that are brunette, but different styles.The first wig I bought at St. Joseph's Hospital Salon.  It makes getting ready to go out more enjoyable. Just getting used to the bald head is one thing... so putting on a different hair style kicks it up a notch.  I went to church today as Tootsie a short hair style. I haven't gotten nerve yet for a different color, I think I am satisfied with the 4 I have, but you just never know.

Tomorrow is treatment #4  and the last of this regiment. Then I start on Herceptin and Taxol. I will probably be slow going for about 5/6 days. I feel dizzy, tipsy, and foggy, then start to come out of it and time for another treatment.  Thanks for listening. Love, Martha

Flowers, candy, cards, messages,books, music

I sure do feel the love....... not just Valentine love but everyday love from friends, church friends, Joe's High School Friends from De La Salle, my high school, college, choir, art center, work, and neighbors. Food and flowers have just been left at the front door, flower deliveries, candy, soup, casseroles, a cocconut from friends from Ohio vacationing in Florida.  Thank you soooooo much. Your care and concern is so much appreciated.  We know how fortunate we are to have so many friends and caring family.   Thank you, Thank you!! Love, Martha

Slow going

I had my 3d chemo on Monday, Feb.7th and shot on the 8th. Five days later I am still "sluggish".
I seem to be " foggy" and tired so I am resting a lot. Tonight we will stay with our grand daughters in Saline while Kevin and Holly go to Jeff Walter's 40th birthday party. I am looking forward to playing with Tess and Mia. They are just the sweetest girls, 7 and 5 years old.  Refreshing to be around young people's energy, laughter, and smiles.  My bags are packed with Valentine projects and maybe some cupcake baking and decorating will happen. Martha

Neullasta

The day after chemotheray, I receive a Neulasta shot at the hospital. Neulast ia a drug manufactured by Amgen. It is a white cell booster, a drug that helps the body make more of its own natural whte blood cells to help portect against chemotherapy-related infection. A low white blood cell count or an infection can put chemotherapy on hold.  So I must stay healthy so that I don't miss a treatment. I am 3/4 of the way thur the Adriamycin and Cytoxin.... one more of the "big hitter" to go.  The cost of one Neulasta shot is $4500 and I get 4 shots.  So today I get a shot today.  I leaves me tired, stiff and flu like for a few days..... but it is keeping me healthy and ready for better health.  Thank heaven for good insurance.

God,  please guide the intellectuals that are inventing treatments and procedures to keep our children and adults living longer so that they may fulfill their life dreams and good works. Martha

Becky Eidson Luethy

Today was my third infusion of Adriamycin and Cytoxin ( my friendly drugs that are distroying the unwanted cancer cells).  So, I am three-quarters of the way thru this regimen of drugs. The drugs I am on now are the strongest I will get..... altho they are all strong.  I have a steroid shot to begin the treatment. Which explains my appetite and energy today.... it will last about one more day, then tired and listless for a couple of days.

While getting my treatment I reread a book written by Becky Eidson Luethy. Becky is the daughter of George and Marge Eidson from Tecumseh. We have known the Eidson's since the early 70's. George and Cal worked together at the Lenawee Intermediate School District. Becky and her brother Andy were enough years older than Kevin and Andy to baby sit with our childern. Becky would come so perpared with books to read, projects to make. We had a big sand box in the back yard that was outlined with railroad ties...... so it was big. Becky brought project ideas to make in the sand like making wax candle shapes.  Our boys loved it when the Eidson's came to play with them. Andy Eidson always played catch, or games with a ball.

Becky, now a young mother of two childern, lives in St. Louis, Mo. She was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2005. She created a blog, which gave me the impetus too, to journal her jouney. A friend had her blog and comments published.  Reading it is very helpful to the patient and their families. Her Lutheren Faith is so strong.  She describes her emotions, concerns, anger, frustration, calmness, resolve, but most of all her trust in the Lord.  Thank you  Becky for sharing your experience, I know your book will be a tremendous guide for others, It has been for me. 

This experience has been life changing for me. It has drawn me closer to my faith. I am reading the Bible and other spiritual readings. Often times we go to God in times of trouble or fear, but need to remember to put him foremost everyday.

Revelation 21:4    "He will remove all of their sorrows, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. For the old world and its evils are gone forever, And the one sitting on the throne said, "Look, I am making all things new!"

Love, and peace,
Martha

A Snow Day

Today is February 2nd and so much of the country is in a snow storm, schools and businesses are closed to keep people safe and off the streets. It is beautiful looking our our windows. Our view of the country club is beautiful every season of the year. I love looking out at the wildlife and God's creation. I have some beautiful music playing, piano right now, very relaxing and peaceful. 

I have received so many cards, calls, flowers from friends and family. I am amazed at the out pouring of love and friendship I have received.  I am more aware of my need to reach out to others in good times and difficult times.  We need to take care of one another, I feel the love and understanding from all you you. Thank you again and again. If I don't get a letter or email off to you right away, know that I am grateful for your thoughts, love and care for us. I am thinking about you too. Love, Martha

University of Michigan Breast Care Center visit

Joe and I were at St. Joes's at 8:30a.m. this morning. We were seen by Dr. Theresa Schwartz, a surgical oncologist and member of the Breast Care team. She reviewed the results of the tests I had a St. Joseph's Hospital, physically examined me, and discussed my situation with us.  Unfortunately, we don't know from the biopsy what the lymph node involvement is. The surgeon removed the tumor which because of the size  put me in stage 2 breast cancer. He did not do a blue dye, radiation test to find the Sentinal node ( the lymph node that has cancer cells) so consequently, we don't know how many  lymph nodes are involved... is it one, two or fifteen? It all has to do with the size of the tumor and because of it's size he sent me to an oncologist for chemotherapy to stop the spread. Being in the lymph nodes is Stage 3 breast cancer which is what the St. Joe's oncologist said

So U of M is suggesting the same protocol: chemo 20 weeks, surgery ( Mastectomy with axillary lymph Node Dissection)  followed by radiation and chemo.  U of M did a fantastic job of educating us.... and we like the team approach. They meet after the doctor visits with the patient to discuss the best plan.  More information more decisions on where to receive the treatment??

I'll pray for the answer..... leaning toward continuing with chemo at St. Joes ( would be the same at U of M, surgery, radiation, follow thru at U of M.  Thanks for listening. Martha

Second Opinion

On Monday, Joe and I will go to the University of Michigan Breast Care Center where they will review all my test results,  then meet with us about how they would approach my treatment. They have a tumor board that will discuss my situation. We will be there for the day. I am curious as to what they would do and if it is a different approach. I am very pleased with the care I have received at St. Joseph Mercy Hospital. More information should be good.

"Out from under the Covers"

Today, Friday, I felt like getting "out from under the covers"!!
I don't know if it was the combination of getting the port, treatment and shot, but I had less energy this week.
I was very content to rest for a couple of days, I normally have lots of energy and enjoy being busy and active. The past couple of days were sleepy days. Eat a little, sleep a lot.

Community Arts of Tecumseh is a dream of Jean Lash, myself and community  individuals interested in the arts. The City of Tecumseh has offered us a wonderful builing to have classes.  We offer art and music classes for preschoolers thru adults. Today we had about 10 artists that came for open studio to draw a live model (clothed). They came from Tecumseh,Jackson, Adrian, and Brooklyn to draw for several hours. It was so exciting to see the center so active with artists having a good time together.   Going there was just the boost I needed today. Our program is growing and expanding. Just the uplift I needed!

Big Day - Jan 24

Joe and I were at St. Joe's from 9:30 a.m. until 5:30 p.m. just another work day!! I really should start calling Joe, "St. Joe" because of his patience, love, and understanding. This journey affects him just as much as it does me. He is so kind and thoughtful, reassuring, and sweet. What a fantastic husband I have.

So I had a new port put in my left chest. There were 2 incisions made, it took about one and a half hours to accomplish getting it in. I did not have the Dermabond ( a liquid adheasive) which I was allergic to with the arm port. So hopefully this port will be happy and not be problematic. I then saw the doctor, who was pleased with the results from the first treatment, he said that the tumor had shrunk so the drugs are doing their job. I am very stiff, very swollen knee from the white blood platelet booster, I get that shot again tomorrow.

Now about the hair!!! It is on the bathroom shower floor, in my hand when I touch my head, falling in my face/food...... so I will probably have it shaved off either tomorrow or Wednesday. Demi Moore looked good commando, altho I don't have her pretty face, I may go command if it isn't too cold. I do have a beautiful collection of hats now, thanks to my friends and family.... just another new look for winter.

Time for bed after a big day. Love, Martha

"The opposite of Faith is Anxiety"

I am a member of the First Presbyterian Church in Tecumseh. Today's sermon was titled, "The opposite of Faith is Anxiety"...... Pastor Moritmer began with a passage from Mathew 6: 25- 34. Paraphrasing: Why worry about things, does worring add a single moment to your life? Our Heavenly Father knows what we need  and will give them to you if you give him first place in your life and live as he wants you to. "So don't be anxious about towmoorw God will take care of your tommorrow too. Live one day at a time.

Surprise Luncheon

Yesterday I had a wonderful "surprise" luncheon. The plan was to meet Kristin and Pam to talk about their trip to Florida over lunch. They are going in our place to Jeff's condo in Naples Florida for a month. So I was prepared with maps and Joe and I recounted the wonderful places to eat and visit. When I walked into Evans Street Station there were friends sitting at a long table. The table had a beautiful arrangement of pink tulips on it.  Kristin and Pam planned a hat party for me. As I opened the hats I realized that they had each taken time to pick out an attractive style for me to wear during my "hairless" months. Holly, my daughter in law was there with hat selections from Tess and Mia, our grand daughters. Sarah, from the Library knitting group, knitted an adorable green hat with a flower on it, but didn't attend. Earlier in the week, two others from the knitting group had given me hats they had knitted. Some hats were winter hats others thought of spring and summer styles. I will be well supplied with a variety of beautiful hats thanks to my friends.........I will wear a smile on my face when I wear "your" hat.  Thank you all. Love, Martha

"I don't believe makeup and the right hair style alone can make a woman beautiful. The most radiant woman in the room is the one full of life, friends, and experience"................Sharon Stone

You just never know

When my late husband, Cal Poppink, passed away from melanoma cancer, our family set up a scholarship in his name. The scholarship is given thru the Lenawee County Schools Foundation. It was one of the first given. I think the first year was 1990 that the scholarship was given.  Jill Schuster Kolodsick was one of the first recipients to receive the scholarship. Just a few years ago Jill reconnected with us thru Facebook.

Yesteday, I received a notice from Susan G. Komen for the Cure, a gift in honor of Martha Melcher from Jill Kolodsick.  All I can say, is that I am honored that Jill thought to make a donation in my name toward finding a cure for cancer, and that as a young adult she  thinks about giving back.  What she received as a scholarship when she was a high school senior meant enough to her to continue giving to others in her adult life.  Thank you Jill!!

Wednesday, January 19

Well, today I missed out on breakfast with the Maxe's and lunch with my book club. My port sight is still troublesome. I had a Dopler this morning to rule out a blood clot..... no clot, and to see the oncologist. He said that the port was not put in deep enought so the skin wasn't getting a good blood supply, and I am allergic to Dermabond, a liquid adhesive. I get another port put in on Monday in my chest. I will be using the port for a year, so I am crossing my fingers for a good result on this one.

 Lesson for the day-  Be Patience and perservere~~~~~
Martha

Emergency room visit

On Saturday night we enjoyed Tess and Holly's piano recital and dinner with the family. Tess played White Christmas, Song for a Scarecrow and Holly played Clair De Lune. They played their songs beautifully.  On the way to the recital I developed a severe back ache, from the lumbar area up my neck. We had planned on going to the emergency room anyway to have them look at the removed port area which was very red, the  red area was spreading, throbbing and a concern.  I didn't have a fever which was good. So about 7 oclock we arrived at the ER of St. Joe's Hospital in Ann Arbor. They have a "Senior" section..... a beautiful area with 10 rooms, quiet, fully staffed, very pleasant even if you are there because of a health concern. So I had all the tests, even xrays for the spine, neck pain. I was taken to xray via a  $9000Stryker gurney ( I asked about the bed) on the way back the tech ran into a metal tray that crashed with a big bang so everyone looked at our dammage from the impact..... anyway a few minutes after getting back to my room about 4 nurses came to my room and said "You can't be a "Senior" you look too young".... a feel good moment, new hair cut!!

I was given an antibiotic, for the infection/cellulitius, the spine and neck didn't show any cancer concern (whew) just artheritis.
I know that I will have complications to the treatment and this was the first. With good doctors and nurses I will work through them.  Martha

Before the "Fall"

January 14, 2011

Today I had my hair cut really, really short...... so that when it begins to fall out there won't be so much on my pillow. I look like a brunette version on Jamie Lee Curtiss. My head is cold with out the insulation of my longer hair.  The doctor said that my hair should begin coming out 18days after my first chemo, that makes it Jan 28th.  since my first treatment was Jan 7th.  I have hats and scarves to wear too. We are going to our grandaughter's piano recital today so I forwarned them that "Mimi" will look different...... just the beginning of the different Mimi looks.  I just hope I don't frighten them. Tess said that pale people look scarry the other day, so face paint is what I'll do when I am going to see her.

We just Skyped with our California family, so they were the first to see the new look, they didn't run or turn off the camera, so I guess they will all handle it.  Enjoy your weekend. Love, Martha

January 12, 2011

January 12, 2011

Michigan is in a blanket of snow. The snow fell yesterday and today the sun is out and the air is crisp.
I am feeling good, because of the snow yesterday, I relaxed and rested so today I feel good...... maybe resting is a good thing.

Our art center is looking into the possibility of putting in a clay studio, so our community could have a place, other than the schools to do ceramics. We have a meeting today to investigate costs, interest, etc. There is a garage that could be transformed into the clay studio. Sounds like a great thing if we can support it financially.

I found this quote on a card at Whole Foods ( when I was buying dark leafy greens-- dandilion greens, collard greens) I will eat anything that gets this cancer our of here. 

"Life isn't about waitng for the storm to pass. It's about learning how to Dance in the rain".... Vivian Greene

Enjoy your day!! Love, Martha

January 10, 2011

I was expecting to have my first chemotherapy treatment today but was surprised on Friday with the first treatment. Probably a good thing it happened that way. Today, Jan. 10th I had a shot of Neuleusta, a white blood cell booster.

St. Joe's has a full service beauty salon that caters to cancer patients. So I picked out a wig or two. Kay Smith has loaned me one too..... so I am ready when it is time to wear a wig.

My next treatment is Jan 24th so I have a few days to enjoy home, sunshine, and friends.

The Community Arts of Tecumseh: www.tecumseharts.org is getting underway for Winter classes. I am taking a calligraphy class on Wednesday, so look for some fancy writing when your next letter comes!!!
We are planning lots of great classes for the Winter and Spring, also a fundraising announcement coming soon!!! 

Joke from the Hammonds

When Jim and Jan Hammond asked what they could do for us...... we said keep us laughing!!
Today we received a card, letter and funny story from Jan.

The other night I was invited out for a night with the 'Girls'..
I told Jim that I would be home by midnight, "I promise".  (he had heard that before!!)
Well, the hours passed and the margaritas went down way too easily.... again! So around 3 a.m.,
a bit tipsy, I headed for home.

Just as I got in the door, the cuckoo clock in the hallway started up
and cockooed 3 times!! Quickly, realizing Jim would probably wake up
I cockooed another 9 times. I was really proud of myself for coming up
with such a quick-witted solution.

I thought it through on my own.... 3 cuckoos plus 9 cuckoos equals 12 cuckoos.... perfect

The next morning Jim asked what time I got in, I simply replied in the sweetest voice.... " Midnight, I was home by midnight".

He hugged me and said, "We  need to go shopping at Martin's today for a new cuckoo clock?
In my same, sweet voice, I replied... "Really, why?"

He said, "Well, last night our clock cuckooed three times, then said "Oh Shit", cuckooed 4 more times, cleared it's throat, cuckooed another three times, giggled, cuckooed twice more, and then tripped over the coffee table and farted.  All I could say was, "Whoops"

Love, Jan

Thanks Jim and Jan for a really good laugh.... I just had to share it!!!

January 7, 2011

A very busy day. It was a snowy day in Michigan today. We had an educational meeting to learn what to do, what not to do, etc. Joe, and Kevin were both there for a meeting with Dr. Krauss. He gave us feedback on the diagnostic tests. CT, MRI, bone scan, results look good. From Dr. Krauss I went for my first chemotherapy treatment.( I thought it was going to be on Monday, Jan 10)  which took about 3 hours. Then on to the Radiology Department to have the doctor look at the port ( had treatment with an IV). Dr. Sorci decided to remove the port, it wasn't looking good. So I will get another port put in when I go back again for treatment, Jan. 24th.  All in all it was a full day from 8:30 a.m. until 5:30 p.m.

Thanks to everyone for the prayers, cards, food, support and love, Martha

January 6, 2011 - El Salvado, California, Michigan Prayer Meeting

Today, Andy and Laura arranged an internatioal prayer group call. Their childcare giver, Ana, is from El Salvado where she prays  long distance with her friends in a prayer group.  They have had me in their prayers and wanted to hear my voice and talk with me.  They are Spanish speaking so an interrepter was there to translate. Alexandra, was the leader, and has the gift of proficy. She quoted from Corinthians 14 verse 1. Let love be your greatest aim: nevertheless, ask also for the special ablilties the Holy Spirit gives, and especially the gift of prophecy, being able to preach the messages of God.  They prayed for healing , peace, faith, and preparing my soul.  I took this to mean, that this experience has been given to me to grow and share my growth in my faith.  Martha

Wig attempt

January 5, 2011

Today Kay and Kristin went with me to pick up the wig I had selected. It just didn't look right- too dark and long so we started over again. We found one that was more like my current hair style  and color ( I sure don't want to frighten anyone if they should see me as a blond or redhead.)  Then I worked with a makeup artist to help put some color in my face...... this whole experience seems to be draining and it shows on my face.

Joe and I topped of the evening with dinner with friends. Joanne is a cancer survivor so she shared her experiences. She is my "hero"  I want to be just as healthy as she is 10 years from now.

Tomorrow I have a conference prayer with Ana, my grand children's Nannie in California. Ana's prayer group is in El Salvador, they have been praying for me and want to hear my voice and pray together. They speak Spanish but there will be an interrupter. I think I will call my friend from Adrian High School who speaks  Spanish to be on the line too She lives in Tenn. So Michigan, El Salvador, Tenn, California  conference call...... modern technology!!!

January 3, 2011

Everyone must be getting back to their routines after Christmas break. Today I have heard from friends that have called, emailed, or stopped by.  I enjoy hearing about new marriages, babies recently born, travel, concerts, and the happenings in my friends lives. Because of these connections the power and energy of healing prayers are being offered up as well. Thank you for your friendship....... your voices, emails, smiles make me happy.

" There is no duty we so much underrate as the duty of being happy. By being happy we sow anonymous benefits upon the world." -- Robert Louis Stevenson

Wonderful experience at Target

On New Years Eve I was shopping at Target in Ann Arbor...... looking for hats.
I put my purchases on the conveyor when I looked behind me where a clerk had her head wrapped with a scarf, a stylish look..... so I scooped up my purchases, put them in the cart and got in her line. No one was behind me.  I put the hats down and explained to her that I liked the way she had her scarf wrapped, that I was preparing to loose my hair because of chemotherapy, and how did she do the scarf wrap? She checked me out, turned off her light, and said come with me to the ladies room and I will show you how you do it. She probably wrapped her head 3 or 4 times to show me. She said, "My name is Ashley, and if you have trouble just come back and I'll help you." She was a sweet angel that day, gave me some encouragement that I could look stylish too.  I have some more practice to do and maybe I'll go back to Target to get the wrap just right..... but her kindness and willingness to show me how she did her wrap was wonderful.

Laura Bilotta's said she would keep me laughing...... her joke for the day. How do you make a scarf dance??
put a boogie in it!!!!!  Thanks Laura